i overused my sms and my handphone bill amounts to a sweet 95 bucks :) so you guys pls understand if i don't reply messages these days..if it's possible, ring me up instead..i am almost banning myself from smsing.. aww..i need to change to a better plan asap!!
♥ 7:04 AM
jj came over yesterday night..we surfed youtube and he introduced this dance. it is called shuffle dance..haha.. damn cool..he said this kind of dance is super common in clubs..haha..but the noobie me is seeing this dance for the first time..so cool..like moon walking all the way..awesome!!lol
♥ 12:35 AM
i am gaining back the weight i lost!! they're all coming back to me like a tsunami...shats...can't afford to gain weight now. so, i'm gonna set my goals straight. firstly, for every staff meal, take only half a scoop of rice, little meat and more veggie.secondly, always finish only half my plate of food.thirdly, no more ice cream during split shift ( this is hard). fourthly, walk like thomas when i am doing the floor :). guess these helps :) ahhh..so desperate---
on a kinder note, payday is approaching:)
haiz..my parents don't seem to favor u much..my friends too..everything is just rough for us..what can i do? just waiting for the clock to tick away..if i wait, will everything else wait with me?
♥ 12:15 AM
Monday, February 23, 2009
just realised my a level's chemistry and biolody scheme of work for prelims are still sticking on my wall...i should have removed it like a eons ago..but a verse on the exam format list caught my attention..something inspirational..it goes like this ' learn how to separate the majors and minors. A lot of peopple don't do well simply because the major in the minor things'...
this brings me back to the past..such inspirational quotes always motivates me to achieve what i want or become a person i have always want to become..haha..i wonder if my uni life is gonna be filled with inspiration too..or maybe it's gonna be dead and lifeless like my working life now..everyday just repeats itself..doing the same old monotonous stuff..sift flour, waffle mix, take orders, pick up food, sweep floor, mop floor, train home, sleep. haha..everyday is lethargic and draggy. i wanna take a break!! a long one..i want my part time soon!!! i want happy outings with happy friends!!
haha..i want a true holiday...
today's split shift was only 2 hours, an hour lesser than the usual 3 hours. so i had a very unsatisfied short nap during my split with don today. went back working in a shabby and shacked state..end up drinking coffee and now i cant sleep...so tmr, the cycle will repeat..grrrr..
get me outta this life man!
but on the brighter side, i made friends that i can click with pretty well at my workplace..so they are the only motivation for me to work...and i hope us guys will become long term friends and not end up being the hi bye kind..lol
haiz..tmr don's not working...gonna be me and suki being the only full timers..shucks..will self-motivate tmr..
ahh...i know i am more inferior...i know i am not good enough...i know i am lesser...but i am gonna reign over her one day..i believe i can
♥ 9:23 AM
Saturday, February 21, 2009
stop treating me like an asshole. i am no pushover material.FU.
♥ 6:50 PM
Friday, February 20, 2009
if only i could turn the cards, now.
how do i escape?it seems so hard.
♥ 4:41 PM
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
donny was so conned by qi zhi and i today. He actually believed a falsed sms. A obviously fake and exaggerated sms. and don believed it. this is so stupid and dumb. donovan, i thought u were averagely stupid at first. Now i know u are severely stupid.asinine by nature. wa ha ha ha. but still, sorry for our dumb trick too. see you ass holes tmr!!!
u fucking shit. do u even give a damn about me?
♥ 8:53 AM
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
wore this kiddy earrings to work today..got it from a nice friend from work..glad to know many nice ppl from shokudo too..the managers and staff are all a bunch of easy going crappo shit..it is just laughter everyday with them..
great laughing with qi zhi today..our joke of the day is always the legendary thomas with an LJB..hahaha..if not we will laugh over 'strawberry', the gayish agm with a sissy file..haha..haiz, but qz is converting part time after this friday.so this means lower doses of laughter each day..but nvm, there is still donny..the nice guy :)
tmr will be split shift..with qi zhi again.. i guess we will be heading down to vivo for some important mission *winks*..qi zhi! never sae die! you still got your chio bu mother!wa hahaha
i cant sleep now for bloody's sake..and look at the damn time..i really need to knock out asap..ah! something is really bugging me..shats..
if only your heart is a ruler, and i can see how much it longs for me. my bullshit makes me LOL.
♥ 10:20 AM
there are two L words. both contains 4 letters. which one are u looking for?
my heart is breaking. i can't feel your care. what am i really to you? maybe just a passerby..
♥ 9:15 AM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
it's like a little girl tearing the wrapper off a box of present on christmas day...to find there is nothing in it at all...
tell me what is the position number ticket i took when u hugged me. the 10th? 20th? 50th? or u didnt count? maybe i am too conservative. It's just a hug :) just a touch :) it doesn't mean anything :) i should think nothing :)
♥ 10:19 PM
why do i grow up making wrong decisions, again and again. repeating vicious cycles.
someone told me i must be sensible in my actions, taking into account that i'm an adult now..but i think i have failed. why did i allow things to take place to quick paced? why didn't i allow myself to pause and think? why am i acting like an idiot? why am i disappointing myself once again? why did i believe fairytales exist in real life?..haha..
i don't know how long this will last, but i hope time passes fast.
those pictures in ur phone disappointed me utterly it doesn't matter if u're a person different from me but it matters to every inch of me when u lie about the person u really are now i am not sure at all, who are you. maybe u're just someone i fabricated with my own ideals of you. maybe you don't exist at all
maybe we shouldn't have met i wonder how much more is to be revealed to me
♥ 9:48 PM
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
for u girls who have not seen me for pretty long, I LOST WEIGHT!!!
♥ 9:05 AM
why does my heart start to waver? trying to convince myself that i have made the right choice, but deep inside, i know we are worlds apart.. tell me how do i bring you into my world? or how do i enter yours? i just wanna be happy :)
♥ 8:55 AM
Sunday, February 8, 2009
many things happened recently...and there are many feelings to be sorted out..but whatever the outcome, i am never gonna regret this time of my life... anyway, work's been really fun with the bunch of crappos talking shit and laughing like mad cats...lol life's a laughter, blissful one.
♥ 6:31 PM
Thursday, February 5, 2009
i think i am losing hope :( many times i really wanted to stop and give up. it is not easy for me, especially when i am a girl, to take the lead. and if you always expect me to take the iniative, then it would be really taxing on me..come on, it's hard for a girl to do this job..
if your answer would be a negative ultimately, i really do hope you tell me early. It doesn't feel good guessing your feelings everyday.
my girl's pride is hurt.
Thanks to aik ho for all the advice and everything. Even if we were never meant to be, i think we work out as really good friends. You know me inside out and me to you :) Let's stay this way forever..
♥ 5:43 PM
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
went shopping with kc after work yesterday..then ate at cineleisure shokudo..yummy!!
today is the day i lost all of my FACE!! can't believe i did such a thing...i have no ego!!! stupid grace!! no pride! i SUCK!!!!!!
