Last second dae of MYEs!! after tmr's chem paper, i'm done! The thought of these brighten these gloomy daes up :) but i guess the in upcoming till a levels, i will be feeling the same intoxication and madness.
Anyway right after mid-years, i am 100% gonna swim!! and i am desperately in need of a strict strict diet..fats are growing at all places, with the bulk of them colonising the wrong places..
i realised that sometimes i can be really ambigious in my blog and friends may start to misunderstand what i really meant..haha..but it doesn't matter as what matters is how i interpret it myself..after all, this is my blog...
thinking of creating a new private blog only known to myself though..there are pretty much restrictions in a blog where your true feelings cannot be openly or vividly said..and you'll have to conceal and edit stuff so your point won't sound that obvious...plus you can openly bitch about hateful people :) haha..which is so not me =p
hearts my dears
♥ 2:35 AM
got this from sharon's blog.so real.haha..
still got a few more papers to go!! i will try to strive..studying these few days has been really draining and taxing for my emotional being.i actually broke down while studying bio yesterday night! What's ironic was i studied so little and watched so much of television yesterdae and i can actually break down because of stress. I am such a weakling..and i can't seem to get myself starting on econs now..omg..this MYE is driving me nuts. I just wanna give up on everything and lie on my bed everyday. And i really need to go church again badly!! I just so emotionally empty and guilty and uneasy for many many reasons..i need to feel God!! i need my salvation again!!
please please please..someone force me to go service again..i am backsliding like crazy..and i feel sooo crazy!!arggghh
♥ 3:39 AM
can't wait for after MYEs!! Really in need of a mega de-stress therapy and my retail therapy too..i wanna go swimming, movie watching and just having fun with my mates soon..arggh..can't wait..
it is only the first paper today and i am super wanting it all to end..have to chiong through my chem paper for tmr soon..paper 3, free response..haiz..hopefully i can respond freely throughout the paper..but i doubt so..
i seem to lose interest.i am sorry.i can't help myself.i know i am wrong.blame it on my immaturity.but i thought i had grown.
♥ 12:35 AM
i guess i was wrong.
i was too greedy and expecting too much.
but what is real and what is not.
i will give time to tell me all.
and i know it will be worth all the time.
to tell a whole story till the end.
a sincere heart,
~ the end ~
♥ 6:35 AM
i am in this condition of feeling so cold. Sometimes, we assume we know someone, we are so confident that person will always be who we want that person to be. Until time comes into the picture and tells us more about our assumption, about what we always thought would never falter. Time has come to reveal that not everything we believe is to come true. Nothing is ever perfect and hopes shouldn't be pinned too highly.
♥ 6:28 AM