the best pose in the clothes we really own..

Sent mei shan off for shanghai today..and she cried!!i feel bad to say this but..i was finally relieved when she cried..all the while she put up a happy front and some even thought she was looking forward to her life in the coming 3 years..and she finally cried!! i can feel her dismal upon leaving Singapore at last!! and i was v moved at that point of time...hehe...but didnt cry..Shini didn't cry too..i think she is kinda numbed from all the intense emotions she felt upon receiving the harsh news already..so it was kinda, there were no more tears left? lol...
and mei shan's younger sis and her cute boyfriend was super sweet..keep standing next to each other the whole time..not wanting to stay far from him the entire time..they seemed kinda shy...so i guessed it's that they are that kinda shy couple type..all the while they were so quiet..and her sis keep trying hard to smile..and they kept secretly taking brief glances at each other..like so afriad that the next moment they may not be able to stand near each other or take glances at each other again..omg...suddenly feel my eyes watering..hehe..
then finally when they entered the departure hall..i tell you...i could feel the intense intense intense emo-ness in her sis's boyfriend..although i was standing behind him...his back view looked so saddened and crushed...i bet he was crying so heart inside...screaming for her to turn back and throw a tantrum or something so that her parents may miralculously changed their minds and remind in SG..haha...so IMPOSSIBLE lor..
haiz..imagine someone you feel so emotionally attached to leaves you one day..you'll never get to touch, feel, smell,see,connect,even look from afar at..it's like...like....aiya...like very what lor..haha...hard to describe that kind of longing for her to come back but everything is totally fruitless feeling...hmm...i guess shini is gonna feel this way for mei shan too...best friends for 4 years ok..and suddenly you just lost someone you do all those best friend stuff with..nobody's gonna replace the place mei shan has in shini's heart...so its like, part of her heart kena torn away now? all shini can do is long and yearn for mei shan...wait for 3 years...
i hope everything will be the same again 3 years later...
please mei shan...DON'T YOU EVER COME BACK WITH A CHINA ACCENT!!...like shini say in the album..maintain ur great english standard now!! or we will never be friends with u when u return!!!haha..and shan shan, if you are reading my blog...please please tag it!!..i can't go msn!!haha... although we are not v v close, i really treasured those times we were seatmates in hai sing cos you were such a mother and forever helping me out with work and things...still rmb there was once u were one of the early ppl i told about my big crush on MM ya? and i wasn't even close to u that time...shows how much i trust you lor..hey...i am really missing you now you know..you are making me cry!!oh no..it is so 'like-other-ppl-wanna-know' to tell the whole world here that i am crying...haha...yea...but i want the whole world to know you are worth me crying!!i am usually not that emotional over friends stuff you know..the cranky, un-serious and jokey me can actually feel so much now..haha..i am surprised by myself too..hehe..
ahh..i miss you man...

These were the last pics we took for you...to put in that album we gave you..hehe..sorry..it was shot in the toiliet...well, it's to tell you that as a friend, you are our BASIC NEED!haha...can see the link? lol

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