Dearest grandma
you left me early
released me to the
big big world
lies underhands artificial crude
grandma grandma
tell me where
where was the world
i lived in last time
where grandpa waited at the window
to welcome me and bro
went across streets just to get us sweets and ice cream
came back with a drenched sweaty shirt
but always with a broad broad smile
where you made us buttered bread
which warms my insides so
where you pat me to sleep
covered my ear from the thunder
that i always fear
tell me ghosts don't exist
and that i shouldn't fear
where you shielded those beatings from papa and mama
tell me where
where is this world now?
did you take it away from me the day you slipped away?
and cruelly forced me to a nightmare
where i cup my ears myself
during these thunderstorms
and always cry myself to sleep

Yearning for you to appear
right beside my bed
maybe you know i'm afraid of ghosts
you did not appear somehow
but i think you're in heaven
with a halo those wingsand God
i always imagine you looking
from above down from the sky
smiling with the bright bright light
emitting from behind
you're so beautiful
no longer with the bald head
that vicious cancer brings
so beautiful so beautiful
that i really miss you so much

No one ever saw me like you do
as christian bautista sings
grandma
those things they say
i know you know they are not true
because i am the beautiful baby girl to you
cos you love me so
grandma
i know you want to touch me again
to pat me to sleep once more
and tell me it's ok
cos you believe in me

mummy said once
that you were a kind lady
a simple woman
i always say
i love my grandmother

♥ 5:47 AM